It may shock those not in my immediate social circle to learn that I am not actually dead. I sure felt as though I ought to have been over these last couple of days, but the sickness has departed and the old fire has returned even if the cough remains.
The absence from this blog was somewhat longer than I had intended. I discovered, to my surprise (which was in itself surprising), that being a doctoral student sometimes actually involves hard work and being busy. It doesn’t always, to be sure, but I needed to take some time off from this to get myself into the habit of doing what needed to be done before doing things that were more idle and less productive, however entertaining.
My last seminar of the semester was presented today (while sick and under the influence of medication, but presented nevertheless), and the last grant application will be handed in on Friday. I have much more to do after this, of course, but for the time being things will become more manageable. I’ll also be getting my own internet connection this week, at long last, and so won’t have to schedule blogging around those rare moments in which I happen to find myself on campus with nothing else to do.
The weeks that have passed since I let it all slide have been productive, though not in terribly interesting ways. I got a haircut; I also got a diploma conferring upon me the title of Master of Arts, a position that carries with it both priveleges and responsibilities (the diploma says so explicitly). I had been inclined to view the diploma with the same cynical indifference afforded the BA, but in accepting it in person, and reading it, too, I am no longer inclined to do so. It was the line about responsibilities that did it, I think; I should no longer be a part of the problem, but rather a part of the world-scourging, fire-drinking solution, broadly put.
But all of that is in the future (which begins, as John Paul II wisely put it, not tomorrow, but today), and for the present I will simply rest and exult. Today is October 28th. It has been a good day. I got to speak about James Hogg and his 1824 novel, The Private Memoirs and Confessions of a Justified Sinner, and I hope I do not flatter myself in believing that the things that I said were true. Someone left a copy of Chesterton’s book on Chaucer on one of the free book shelves in the department; it, along with an inexplicable copy of the second volume of a three-part biography of Orestes Brownson, is now mine. I left the building feeling not quite healthy, but not quite so sick, and I was gratified to discover myself in the midst of a genial blizzard upon stepping out of doors. The snow plummets down still, and will not soon stop. It is a glorious thing.
It was on this day in AD 312 that Constantine the Great led his army to victory at the Milvian Bridge, the Cross before his eyes and on his shield, and the emperor Maxentius went down to his death opposing him. October is a great time for such memorials, and one might pass a perfect month of tributes in this precisely-apportioned way:
- Oct. 7 – Lepanto
- Oct. 14 – Hastings (or the Sobibor Uprising, which is pretty excellent too and less ambiguous in its merits)
- Oct. 21 – Trafalgar
- Oct. 28 – Milvian Bridge
There are many other dates of note in this month of months, but I’ll leave that for later.
In the meantime, though, I’m back.